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[Maret Turner]

Hi everyone,
Well I'm just not happy with me....some of you may remember how sick I was
and I lost weight to goal pretty quickly at the end and even went 11 lbs
below goal which was not good...well it made me feel good but I didn't lose
those last lbs. The right way...so when I felt better what did this stupid
person do?  They went back to eating wrong again and now I'm just all messed
up and trying to find my way again.  Granted I am still at 159 by the scale
I weigh in on on Tuesday mornings at tops (goal weight is 165) and I do have
a medical excuse for a year that my weight will fluctuate till these meds
get straightened out but....I get weighed once a month at weight watchers at
night and when I got on the scale at home Monday night it said 165 so I didn
t go yet this month...now this morning my scale says 163 so I am dangerously
close to going above goal and it is a scarry proposition to me.
I need help girls....I need to get back on the healthy track and stop
floundering.  I know all the tricks but why can't I get my head to do what
it is supposed to do?
Ok I am walking 1 mile at the gym and then 1 mile with my friends on m, w.
And Friday mornings and then we go for coffee...just coffee and chat so I'm
ok there....on Sundays we meet for mile walk and then go to breakfast which
I try really hard to have a lite one.  Tuesdays I go to they gym, walk 1
mile and then do water aerobics for 60 min.  Then I go home and pick my
daughter up and we head back to the college for the tops meeting where I
officially weigh in... I go to weight watchers cause I am a lifer at ww and
that is my savior at times but tops are a great batch of girls that get
together  and talk about weight issues no matter what weight program you are
on and I get recognition there for my accomplishments which anything I can
do to help my weight loss journey I figure is a plus for me....so yes I
belong to both because I get some of what I need from both...I usually grab
a black coffee to take to the meeting and my flavored water and then have a
slim fast bar or something to get me through the morning cause we don't get
out of there till lunch time.  Thursday mornings I walk a mile at the gym
and then do 60 minutes at the water aerobics also and Saturday mornings I
take my daughters to the gym and do water aerobics on my own for an hour.
So I have some of the exercise going for me...its the eating...I feel like a
fish floundering and I don't know quite how to reel myself in and get back
on program....
Actually that is stupid of course I do...I need to be accountable for what I
eat and I need to write it down and keep track...I am eating way to much
bread again and eating at night again and way to much diet soda again....I
guess what I am asking is for your support girls cause I sure need you:)
I think I remember reading where someone wanted to start some different
things for more participation in the group and I am so ready for that step
too:)  I so do not want to regain the 88 lbs I have lost:(
Well I'm about to head out for walking and water aerobics and will be back
on line when I get home for a few minutes before I go meet my friends for
lunch then I will be home for the day.
Thank you for anyone who was brave and patient enough to read my whole long
boring letter here:)
Hugs,
Maret

PS...needless to say I guess I have gained a little but still under goal for
the moment...hoping to keep it that way and lose again.  That is doctors
goal by the way, not mine.....

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