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[Darrel Petri]

We didn't have a meeting last week due to the weather so I am really
embarrassed to say that I gained 4.75 lbs. Over the past 2 weeks. I am now 3
75 lbs. Out of leeway!! I am really having some self esteem issues within
myself these past few months and I have really struggled with staying within
leeway. I am so hard on myself that there have been times I worry and fret
about it so much I get migraines. The last time I ended up in the e.R. For
pain medication. I know being healthy is important but I am not sure I like
being a KOPS---------------too much stress to stay there!! That is the way
it is for me anyway.
I so admire those who can maintain their weight, maybe I am just too weak to
do what has to be done to be a KOPS> I don't know, I have 2 weeks to lose 3
75 lbs., I will see what I can do. Guess I am just weary of the fight but I
know I can't give up the struggle.
Thanks for listening and hope all of you have a good week!
Beth IL 0559, Bloomington