[CyberTOPS] Im slacking whats wrong with me??????

[Tina Barker]

First let me say how very disappointed in myself I am.  I dont know whats
wrong with me.  It seems like every time Im about to get below 300 pounds
(which I want to be very badly) I sabotage myself.  I dont know why.  So if
I have a gain Monday at TOPS I will definately deserve it and If I lose or
stay the same it will be a miracle.  I have been doing great.  Riding the
exercise bike just about everyday from anywhere between 10-15 minutes but
the last 3 days I havent even got on it.  Im slacking and I dont know why.
I have a very good reason to get healthy now besides for myself.  I have a 6
month old daughter that I want to see grow up.  And if I dont get this
weight off Im going to end up with Diabetes, high blood pressure and high
cholesterol which Im surprised I dont already have but I have been checked
and Im doing good.  I wish there was someone that has or is over 300 pounds
like myself that need someone to talk to about everyday life and the
struggles of weight loss so we could do this together.  I know everyone is
here for me but alot of people dont understand what its like to be over 300
pounds.  Im just venting now.  Im just really frustrated with myself.  I
need a good swift kick in the butt.

Tina