[CyberTOPS] Somethings Gotta Be Done (VENT)

[Tina Barker]

Something has to be wrong with me.  I cant seem to get back on track no
matter how hard I try.  I want to get this weight off for good this time but
I cant get on track and stay there.  I went to Taco Bell today and Instead
of gettin 1 thing I got 4 things not big things but still 4 and I know they
have alot of fat in them and Sodium and not to mention calories.  And to
beat it all I wasnt even that hungry.  I have been drinking my water so
thats still good but if I cant get the eating and the exercising down then I
have nothing.  I stepped on the scale after eating which I know I shouldnt
have done after eating everything I had ate today and I weighed 313.  The
beginning of October I was down to 301.  Thats 12 pounds in 1 month.  Why am
I letting myself go????? I know what needs to be done and how to do it so
why cant I do it????  whats holding me back????  I wish I have someone that
lived close to me that had about as much weight to lose as me and we could
be workout partners but theres no one around here that I know.  I belong to
TOPS and I know all I would have to do is call this one girl but me and her
got to talking before and she likes to walk fast and Im not a fast walker at
all so that wouldnt work.  I have Walk Away The Pounds DVDs miles 1-4 whats
my exscuse not to use them???  I have none but shear laziness.  I really
want to join the gym again but Im afraid that Im going to get lazy again and
not go and theres that money down the drain.  Well thanks for listening to
me vent.  It seems like thats all i do anymore.

Tina